After a few weeks off from ESB, I thought long and hard about it, and I'm officially deciding to return today.
However, I have a few problems I'd like to address:
- During the break, I got globally blocked for vandalizing a wiki and using a racial slur on the SpongeBon Fanon Wiki.
I'd like to apologize for this mistake. Even though it happened outside of ESB, I should not have been so ignorant to FANDOM'S ToU. Though either FANDOM Staff or SBFW admins should have deleted that racist chain thread, as it is both a violation of FANDOM and SBFW's ToU, and leaving it on there is sort of encouraging other users to break the rules.
- While I was globalled, a user named ChuckieBird03 joined and came to my defense, and yes that was my sister. I was just so angry back then at people betraying me and assuming things about me that I needed someone other than myself to defend me and make me feel appreciated on the wiki, as people lost my trust and blamed me for things I didn't even do and still assumed me to be a troll and sock of cookie when I'm not.
- However, people assumed ChuckieBird to be a sock of me, but she is just my sister and uses the same device/IP as me. Plus, this is not the first time that users' relatives have joined the wiki; Rocky Lobster's brother has an account called Mike Pence and everyone believed him to be his brother
Anyways, yeah, I am truly sorry for all the mistakes I made here and mean attitude which eventually lead to me getting globalled. However, I think it would be making mountains out of moleholes to make a big deal out of it, as all of the offenses that got me globalled happened outside of ESB, and events on other wikis do not affect what happens here at ESB. Plus, I would never go as far as to harm or vandalize ESB; I really care about this wiki being in a state of being.
I don't think it was worth anything of me to retire due to people making rude comments towards me and accusing me to be a troll or sock; if people think that, then that's their problem, not mine. From now on I will stay strong and stand up for myself whenever I receive bullying or rude remarks.
I will start a new era and warm up to the community and strive to be a much nicer person. I will continue making productive contributions, I will say "Please", "Thank you", "You're welcome", and take responsibility for my actions and not blame people for things that aren't their fault. I will not show any signs of wanting to create drama or boss people around. I will be a much more civilized and mature user here at ESB.
I am definitely learning from my mistakes after I got globalled while on retirement. It feels so refreshing to start a new era and learn from my mistakes.
Unfortunately, due to the potential backlash I might receive from this blog, I am disabling comments, but if you have any concerns about the points raised in it, feel free to leave a message on my wall; just make sure it's civilized and in good faith or I'll remove or close it for rude remarks. And unless you are an admin, do not give out commands to me or try to nudge me in certain directions; that is minimodding and something that should be up to admins only.